Oh God. OH GOD.

Out of absolute FEAR I refuse to check my message history on Y!M last night.

Because I remember doing something really, REALLY retarded, then not giving a shit about it.

Until this morning.

FFFFFFFFF

WHAT DID I DO?

AND WHY DID I DO IT??

(But I'm impressed at how my cold got better. Slightly, but it's enough to prove that all I needed was a megadosing of alcohol.)

Di pa rin natuto

One year later.

May tama na nga, papatol pa.

Well, at least iba na yung mga kasama ko ngayon. Di na sya.

Internet's back, but not really

After 24 hours of being forced to do homework I man up and call my ISP. They tell me how to fix it and I fix it right and my internet is working. Yay, almost.

My next problem is my fucking router. Once I put the antenna cable in, the internet goes down again. So basically only the main desktop has internet.

Why does this have to happen during vacation? And why isn't there anyone else in this house more knowledgeable about tech shit than me?

EDIT: FUCKING FINALLY I GOT IT TO WORK

Nagpakatorpe na naman

Oo, umandar ulit yung topak ko. This like MLG all over again, and in more ways than one, hahaha! (Kilala mo ba yun? 'Wag no nang kilalanin.) Di ko nga sya kayang i-joke lang ng "Uy, i-Christmas gift mo na lang sakin yung USB mong maganda!" Peste talaga.

Kaya eto, magpapakalasing na lang ako ng mag-isa sa kwarto ko gamit ang pasalubong ko na Disaronno at Jägermeister. ;_;

(Nagtatagalog na naman ako? Seryosong problema nga 'to!)

EDIT: Tangina, napipikon talaga ako sa sarili ko! Sobrang bitin pa ng mga minibottles.

Passive-aggressive

So my PMS jacked up a few more notches because there was nothing I did today that didn't go wrong. I'd make a list if it wouldn't completely drain what's left of my energy.

Seriously. I am so fucking angry right now that I could tear out someone's spine if I let myself lose control.

EDIT: Man, I love talking to happy people with no hang-ups in life.

Rage of a thousand suns, etc.

There are a number of things pissing me off right now, and I can't go back to work.

1. Report for 112. Should've started this last night but NO, I just had to watch Kara no Kyoukai 7 (which was a damn good end btw, but ufotable should've devoted just as much effort to movie 6).
   
2. End of "Run, Melos!" which came out last night. GODFUCKINGDAMN cockblocked by death AGAIN. Hughes, Kamui, Lelouch, Vergil, and now Joushima... fucking hell! Why can't they just go on living out their happy homolust endings?!
   
3. Chapter 102 of Fullmetal Alchemist. There's Al rejecting his own body because it's too frail to fight in, then Roy loses his motherfucking eyesight! Damn, can the guy's life get any worse?
   
4. Last and most important of all, what is the DEAL with what'shisface? I'm sorry, I don't communicate telepathically so I cannot understand what he means when he glares at me like he wants to kill me, apparently even when he sees just the back of my head.
   
   Of course, it really doesn't fucking help that I freeze up like a deer in headlights when I catch his eye. I've tried replicating my jacklit-deer look in the mirror and I resemble a retarded owl that just flew straight into a wall. In fact, I think he looks at me like that because I freak him out in some unnappealing way. FML.

Hindi ko kinaya yun

Lately I've been experiencing a drought of decently slashable male characters in any medium. Oh, yuri does have its perks, if done right. But the satisfaction gleaned from the chemistry of perfect homolust between two men is pure beauty, like tasting a raw slice of heaven itself. The last series that fulfilled this need was Sengoku Basara, and as seen in my entries around April to June I was in the grip of an obsession so intense that reality itself was beginning to lose its substance before my yaoi-crazed eyes. (I'm sorry, I really can't bring myself to consider watching Antique Bakery as "fulfilling my need". It really isn't the kind of yaoi I like.)

And now, with the infection of /a/'s ruthless elitism, I can no longer enjoy the shows that normally contain this sort of fanservice without my bloated pride slapping my face for poor taste. So I've all but succumbed to the despair that I'd never get a chance like Sengoku Basara, Code Geass, or the Phoenix Wright games again.

Then suddenly here comes along the new arc in Aoi Bungaku, "Prince of Tennis" "Run, Melos!".


That screenshot should satisfactorily explain why I am now a gibbering wreck of a fujoshi.

Visually desirable character designs? Check.
Talented in different but complementary aspects? Check.
Long history of friendship? Yeah, baby.
Practicing the Romeo and Juliet balcony scene together? Fucking YES.

But since this is Aoi Bungaku we're talking about, they obviously won't get a happy ending. Even at the start of the episode Megane-kun couldn't concentrate on just transcribing a friendship story due to the seemingly painful memory of Romeo-kun.

Damn. I haven't even finished watching the episode yet and I'm already dying like this. Can't have another unfulfilled-homolust despair crippling me again when the next part comes out.

EDIT: THE GAY. OH GOD. I AM A DEAD THING, FLOATING IN THE BLOODING SPEWING FROM MY NOSE.

EDIT2: SO APPARENTLY THEY'RE GONNA ELOPE.

Well, not exactly. Pero ganun na rin yun, sus.

I'm surprised no one has come barging into my room yet. My high-pitched screaming is loud enough to rouse even the ashes of the dead.

EDIT3:

I felt that if I was with him, I could go anywhere.

Even to heaven or hell.

Even to a place without people, the very end of the world.

I think I know the reason why this particular kind of homolust affects me so much.

I have a historical affinity with it.

EDIT4: OH GOD THAT CLIFFHANGER FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Goddamn! That is the worst fucking way to be separated from each other!!!

And now the ending song's making me cry! Why, oh why must their love not be?! ;_;

Back in the 'hood

Whoa, I actually went two whole days without touching my computer (and nearly two weeks without updating my blog, thanks to Darker than Black). It's at times like these that I always realize that my addiction to the internet isn't as serious as I think it is.

... buuut I need to download a shit ton of backlogged episodes I really fucking need to watch. School and installing lights and decorations on that Christmas tree kept me away from my computer long enough. I need my Hei fix NOW.

(Did you know, I named the survivor goldfish from our experiment after Hei's messier code? Dohohoho.)

Gwapito amputek

OKAY THAT'S IT. I'm converting the first four episodes of Darker than Black S2. The possibility of an S1 Hei soon showing up is too hard to resist.

Too panicked to feel panic

Waah hindi ako marunong gumawa ng postlab report sa 136!

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Okay, time to get back to work.

EDIT: LOL N.I.